I still send them out every year. It’s become a rite of the season, even as the tradition of letter writing falters and my penmanship along with it. But the lights must go up, gifts wrapped, cookies baked, cards ordered and mailed. All these things, repeated year after year, have a way of blurring the present and the past, and filling the last few weeks of December with a sense of nostalgia potent as the smell of balsam needles and wood smoke. My mailing list includes the names of people I’ve known since childhood. Some I haven’t spoken to for decades, and most likely will never see again. The card is often the final connection to a friendship that’s faded, though its meaning hasn’t. It’s a card sent into the past, really, to a time and place that no longer exists – except in my memory. For me, though, one of the best parts of the season is that chance to remember. To travel with the Ghost of Christmas Past back to a time when everyone you ever loved is still alive and well. It’s what makes this darkest month of the year worth celebrating, despite the cost of postage going up.
Christmas Mail
by Ted Kooser
Cards in each mailbox,
angel, manger, star and lamb,
as the rural carrier,
driving the snowy roads,
hears from her bundles
the plaintive bleating of sheep,
the shuffle of sandals,
the clopping of camels.
At stop after stop,
she opens the little tin door
and places deep in the shadows
the shepherds and wise men,
the donkeys lank and weary,
the cow who chews and muses.
And from her Styrofoam cup,
white as a star and perched
on the dashboard, leading her
ever into the distance,
there is a hint of hazelnut,
and then a touch of myrrh.